The Casualties of being Casual: 2

I was pursued, wooed and with reluctance accepted a dinner date after the 3rd and what would have been the final attempt. (Persistence is key gentlemen) The beginning of this perfect non-relationship relationship was awesome. Dinners at random joints I had never been to, going into a new book store, A HACKER'S MEETING!! Yeah. I know. And now it's reached it's regular schedule of just having a sleepover.

Fine. I get it. That's technically what this is all about but why woo then??  My biggest problem...well I dunno if it's a problem, but I very naturally succumb to the "out of sight out of mind" dilemma.  I'll call it a problem actually. It happens with my friends too. It's kinda sad how I'll go on alone and not blink about it. But anyway...when it comes to a relationship, even if it's only for some booty here and there, the appeal fades if your interest in spending time together fades. It's not as exciting as it promised to be.  Am I asking too much? Do I want a non-boyfriend boyfriend? Nah, because I don't like obligation, but I do like interaction.  Maybe I'm just not cutout for this casual stuff? I won't bring it up to him, it's not his problem. And if I'd be starting an argument of sorts, it means this has gone in the complete opposite direction or our intentions. And just to be clear, I know this guy as my boyfriend just wouldn't work. The differences that make us interesting to each other are still differences I know would completely piss each other off in the long run.

 Funny enough, this month's Cosmo mag has a write up about being the girl in limbo. If you want it to get serious speak up or if not, then break it off. It says that staying in an "almost-relationship" is potentially keeping you from meeting other people.  It is easy to avoid chatting up someone new or scoping out a crowd when you know what sort of company you will be having the next night. I agree with this 100% and am obviously living it, but to each his own even if it's only for a limited time. As long as I'm enjoying myself I'll continue with it, when things wear off then it's onward and upward!  For now I'll enjoy my random emotional, physical and mental fulfillment from someone who is doing a fine job.

I hope you had a nice weekend and if you were a mother, you got a little more attention than usual! I missed my mom due to work but she spent the day sun bathing in our quiet back yard so I don't feel so bad :) Have a great week, I am excited to be taking my first ever belly dance class on Thursday! Woohooo! Can't wait to tell you all about it! Thanks for reading..

Ciao for now,

TT

Growing Pains

I'm missing New Jersey and my childhood friends a lot lately. I don't deal well with time passing.  My closest friends all live within 3 hours of each other but we've all got different things that keep us from getting together on a whim the way we used to.  Whether it's our job, babies, money, commuting etc...it's just not as easy as it used to be when we were spoiled with playtime in our small hometown. Growing up means growing apart but my friends and I are doing our best and I think we're all ok for now :)

I often try to imagine what I would be doing if I still lived in NJ or even if I were to move back. I'd probably be working with my friends over at Rocco's (especially now with the new restaurant opening up), living in some sort of apartment if I hadn't decided to buy a condo (thinking of how much money I've spent on rent sometimes makes me feel like an idiot) or perhaps still freeloading at my parents'.  I had already quit getting my teaching certificate before I got my job offer in NYC so I know I wouldn't have pursued that. Perhaps I would have gone to beauty school with my bff KS? Who knows. I'd also be pining for a man I could not have. Being away makes it much easier to keep him out of my face hahah

If I had the luxury of a job that gave me weekends off I would be visiting everyone over the next couple of weeks. I can't request off much more because I've got shows coming up and pre-wedding activities. I'm not complaining either, just sayin. My girlfriend time, especially to meet my will-be God daughter Alessandra will have to be put on hold for a bit! *sigh  I'm probably feeling this way because I'm just lost and trying to figure out shit. It's like I don't know what I wanna do, but actually I wanna do it all then the problem is where to start! I'm in a creative funk but I've got shows coming up and I am stoked! After being at Nurse Bettie's a couple of weeks ago it was like a kick in the butt so I picked up some supplies while in NJ to make a new costume...let's see how it comes out!!

Here's my upcoming shows - hope to see you there :)

Tuesday, May 22 - WORKING THE DOOR
The Pink Room: David Lynch Burlesque
Parkside Lounge

Friday, May 25
Saved by the Bell: The Burlesque Years
Bar Matchless

Friday, June 1
Rockabilly Roadshow
Rodeo Bar

Thursday, June 7
The Peel: Burlesque at the Beach
Coney Island

Saturday, June 9
Bomb This Joint: The Big 7-inch Release
Otto's Shrunken Head

THIS LOOKS EVEN MORE AWESOME IN LIST FORM - I AM PUMPED! hahaha

Thanks again for stopping by, hope you enjoy each second you get with your friends and family. I know I do no matter how sporadically it may be! Endless love...

Ciao for now,

TT