Going Back For More

Last week I closed my blog saying that I might be ending things with my lover. Well I'm not, not just yet anyway.  I'm in the "it's better to have someone to call than no one" state of mind right now. This has been my life though. Not having a serious relationship in my 28 years of existence, I've relied on casual relationships. Anybody that wanted to spend some time with me. (Not just anybody, but you know what I mean!)

The thread is getting thinner though. I'm not a good fake it til you make it girl. I'd rather just not talk to you anymore. Last time we hung out was irritating. I was probably PMSing, the subway wasn't working, it was SO hot outside, I was waiting around on the streets after a long day of work, and I was irked that we weren't going back to my place since my roommate was away the entire weekend..I just wanted to go home. I should have went home, but I didn't. I felt bad bailing, but now I've learned my lesson because it really put a damper on our thing. He seems clueless though.

After that last hang sess, I pretty much avoided his calls for 2 weeks. Oopsies, I didn't get to my phone in time. Oopsies, I'm already asleep. Oopsies, I'm washing my hair. Oopsies, ignore. You get the idea. After all that, the boy keeps calling, and keeps leaving sweet messages without including so much as a "hope everything is ok...haven't heard from you". This was cracking me up. I figured since I've simmered down I'll give it another go. Perhaps in a better mood but still not being able to shake how annoyed I felt by him that night. I really didn't feel like talking to him, let alone sleeping with him but I did both. As much as I could have fell asleep on his couch watching Friends, I got up and did my duty. By the way, the sex wasn't a percentage of how exciting it usually is because my head was just clouded. Frankly, I couldn't wait for it to be over so I could get in a solid night's sleep before working again. So it ended, he played his bass, I passed out.

Morning came and I took a shower and got ready as usual but this time I didn't go back down to his room and kiss his head good bye. That was a sign. We'll see what happens..

Ciao for now,

TT

Silent Girl Code? No Thanks.

Girl with Boyfriend hates Single girl.
Boyfriend will never leave Girlfriend for Single girl.
Boyfriend though, will cheat on Girlfriend with Single girl.
Note: Single girl is not responsible for Boyfriend and Girlfriend.

My thoughts are taking me back to an article I read not too long ago, but am now having trouble finding for you...sorry!  In short, it said that women must work together to keep men in check. Since we know "how they are" when it comes to sex, we must  look out for one another and make it clear to men that having their cake and eating it too is just not how it's gonna go down in this woman-run world! Hmm...

I'm not sure how I feel about this. The biggest issue women have is blaming each other rather than blaming the dude. We all know that though so I don't feel like bitching about it now. Instead I'm curious to know cheating stats. I'm finding that with age, more and more people I know have done it, are doing it, are having it done to them, are choosing to allow it, and are healthily accepting of it.  I'm also curious to know how many relationships would define themselves as successful because one partner has sought outside relations (physical, emotional or both).

Listen, I'll admit it, I'm not exactly innocent, but I'm finding more and more comfort over time when hearing about LOTS of other people with similar experiences. It's sort of crazy how apparent "cheating" is in today's society.  Although I dream of a monogamous lifestyle, I'm often wondering why we still in 2012, are trying so hard to hold onto a two-some style romantic life that takes a lot more work and stress than just being free?

It's hard enough taking care of myself and my needs but to start worrying about yours....sheesh! I can't take care of your relationship too! I'll mind my business and you mind yours. Here's a confession: I don't feel so bad about things I should probably feel bad about. How's that for a "see you in hell" sign off?! Hahah

Just getting back to NYC from NJ. My mom had a small surgery done that was put on hold for a few weeks because her heart tests were coming back funny. I don't even wanna get into the stress I've been under!! That woman drives me crazy.

I've got 2 shows this week!! I get to play in Coney Island with some Aussies on Thursday night and then Saturday night is gonna be a super fun record release party at Otto's Shrunken Head! Woot, can't wait. I'm gonna see if the gold sequin dress can make it to Thursday night. That shit would be dope, I'm just thinking the zipper isn't going to deliver. I'll have to play around with it a bit more before hand!

Hope to catch you at a show soon, if not have a great week and I'll see you next time!!

Ciao for now,

TT