Getting older is amazing. I used to be fearful of age because I associated it so closely with death. Seriously.
I’m realizing that with the more people I meet and the more experiences I rack up, becoming my best authentic self is that much easier. Although it proves to be difficult at times, fighting for myself only helps me project a better Tina upon the world around me and hopefully beyond in the years to come.
I’m an admitted commitment-phobe. I know this stems from a history of “relationships” that conditioned me to feel as if I will never be taken seriously as a partner. That only behind closed doors I am an ideal. With age though, I understand that the few men I’ve had in my life could not accept me because they were not able to accept themselves. This is not my fault. It never was and never will be as long as I am willingly to offer my best self along with my few flaws haha *wink*
My relationship, yes the one in the last post almost 4 months ago to the day, has grown into something incredible. I thought I could make my decision public and put it down on virtual paper and THEN I'd "stick to the plan". I was obviously mistaken. I have something I never thought I would have and it feels great. I know nothing lasts forever, but I’m ok pretending it will. I had many a warning in addition to many words of encouragement. The reality is there is no 1 way to navigate this boyfriend/girlfriend thing. I'm learning everyday.
He came to my family's thanksgiving celebration which was a breeze as I knew it would be. I guess this is a "big deal", but I don't know. It just felt normal and right; Weirder if he WASN'T there, ya know? Life is wild.
Performing has definitely taken a back seat due to my day job. I have less time and less energy to focus on being innovate. This is bittersweet as I love my weekend/manfriend time, but I still love taking events when I can! That said come SEE ME!
Sunday, December 20th at I’ll be at Le Poisson Rouge with some of my favorite people. The ladies that are behind and part of the Burlesque Bikini Bootcamp movement have proven over and over they work and exist with open arms. Celebrate a HOT PINK CHRISTMAS with us!
Saturday, January 9th I'll be at the LoveSick Wedding Expo for the 3rd time! I have some dear friends behind this operation from day one and am SO happy for their continued growth. This "outside of the box" wedding event has the best in local vendors. Come hang out, I promise it's not JUST for couples planning to go down the aisle!
I hope you are all well and thank you for tuning in despite the hiatus. I'm leaving for vacation with two of my girlfriends, LP & KB, on December 14th. #GetMeTheFuckOutOfHere
Ciao for now,