ugh. I'm having this battle with myself again. My costume isn't up to par for this new act so I feel like crap about performing it. I don't have the time or funds to do TOO much to it. Grrrrrr!! That aside I AM looking forward to performing. It's still 2 week away but since Bettie Page Clothing's "Bettie on the Bowery" party I've only hosted so strippin will be a huge treat!
It's funny how easy it is to give advice to the women I have the pleasure of styling all day but I can't take it myself. Simply stated: you could be wearing the best dress in the room but if you don't feel right in it, your attitude will ruin it all. It works the other way around too. Even if I can't have the costume I dream of right now, I can still give a great performance. This is a constant issue for me though, I can't seem to pep myself up so I need to work on it way more!!
On the boy note: I started to receive messages from an old something-or-other after about 6 months of barely any contact and I deflected all his flirty advances! Me-1 Him-still way ahead of me, but it's little victories! haha. Today I had a moment though and was thinking about how much I say him, he, his. I had to sit back and begin changing the way I talk about what I want out of a relationship. I always say I would have loved him more than anyone, but there was no one to love me back. Now I'm looking ahead for that 50/50 relationship I always preach about!
The sun has been shining, it 's making the days wonderful!! I hope you're doing well and eagerly awaiting Spring like me :)
Ciao for now,