Gees - I am on day 13 and feeling it. This too shall fuckin pass!
I absolutely love my job. It is SO great to be back.
I am a bit of a mess over this dude still. I'm so mad.
I think I finally verbalized the hardest part about it to a friend: I've never in my life had to push someone away. In fact, I've always tried to guess ways to keep guys around - which obviously never worked - and here I am with someone I had so much faith in and now I have to separate myself from him. I can't take it.
He had a few things at my place and I meant to take them to his work last weekend but forgot to grab it. I dropped it off on Sunday. Packing that bag was incredibly painful...toothbrush included.
I'm gonna get to sleep. The next time I can wake up without an alarm will be exceptional.
I got to perform at Kitty Nights on Sunday and tried out my new dress & Lana Del Rey song. So far so good, I enjoyed it so now it's time to work on it more! I need a stripper zipper AND TO GET THE FREAKIN INK TAG TAKEN OFF. So ghetto. I know.
Ciao for now,
PS: Don't forget! My new CEO is also going to come if she's in town. AMAZING!!
Next week I'll be announcing the performances by <3