Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Well these emotions aren’t gonna eat themselves!

Ugh, so typical while I’m over here crying and getting chunkier than I’d like, I’m sure he’s out on town after hours having a blast (although drinking his emotions and growing his own belly). He will have no trouble finding someone to bide his time with and she will not be lack luster. She will be clueless, and faithful and eventually hurt, but unfortunately that doesn't make me feel better. I want her to be me. I was really into this guy. I don't think it'll ever work out in the end but who knows! For now I'm just really really really bummed out about it and it's affecting me physically.

That said, how the fuck do you find the motivation to be physically fit? I know the experience is different for everyone but I have NEVER been one to head to the gym or take up jogging or anything exercise related on a regular schedule. When the weather is nice it definitely kick starts my mood (naturally), but even that fizzles. I also have a desk job working against me. Ideally, because I don't have to be here so early, I'd wake up earlier and get my heart rate going for even a bit. Starting is always the hardest part...

Have very few shows booked and that's usually definitive of how I'm feeling off the stage unfortunately. Coming up is Halloween night in Staten Island which is always a blast.

I hope you're all fairing well, sorry to be such a bummer...

Ciao for now,

TT


6 comments:

  1. I feel you on the lack of motivation. I was so motivated till my car accident. Been in constant pain since then. I need to find that motivation again, that drive. I have 2 short years left till my 10th anniversary and my plan is to have a Pin Up inspired wedding, that is, if I can lose this last 50-60lbs.....although, I think you are absolutely stunning and amazingly beautiful just as you are miss Tina Tassels! You inspire me, I hope to find that confidence one day ;-)

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    1. You better have that Pin Up inspired wedding whether you lose the weight or not young lady!!
      Start small. Little steps are better than no steps. Accomplishing short term goals will help keep the momentum going and it’ll help keep your spirits up!
      Thank you so much for your nice words and taking the time to read Liz. Everyone has *my* confidence as well! The only magic I know how to do is reminding myself how valuable I am and that I am deserving of love. You can do magic every day too :)

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  2. You're fantastic! Don't sweat it!

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    1. Thanks anonymous - I am naturally pretty sweaty though haha!

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    2. Your a beautiful woman just as you are don't change a thing.

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