Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Stay EAZY!

Something is going on in my subconscious because I had THE strangest – secret cheating with someone so absurd- dream AND another dude saw us. Even though we were at some outdoor awards show where “no one we know would ever be invited” SO bizarre. The only message I can get out of the dream is that I’m feeling needy, neglected, and wanting male attention. It also presents the idea of feeling ashamed of what I want and the desire to keep it hidden.

Well that’s self-explanatory. FML. My none-dude has been reaching out gently. Some days I can’t stop thinking about him, others I try to keep my brain busy. Blah blah blah!

Sheesh I am tired and it’s making me extra sensitive – it’s only natural, me = human NOT robot – BUT I am gearing up for next week. Peacock party in full effect ya’ll!

I’m also toying with the idea of moving, because hey! Maybe this is supposed to be a year of changes, I’ve got 2 magazine features (Time Out New York & Rebel Ink) under my belt, a regular show at a gorgeous enue, I HAVE A NEW JOB, and will finally have my first day off after 30 on…maybe moving is just another pin I’ve gotta bowl over?

Ciao for now,


 PS: Ive also found my dream dude. Thug life with 50s swagger WHAT?! Well, Hello G-Eazy. *sigh

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Energy on Overdrive

No down time, up by 7 everyday (on day 20, 10 left!), and a show in the works...my “stay positive" energy is really being tested. I am tired, I am PMSing, I am broken hearted – but doing well! Hopefully this weather holds up too.  AND I just found out I might have to move. We'll see about that though, I think my gross landlord is trying to be a pig. Wow, that sounded really mean.
How are you guys?!  I should ask for topic ideas again! (please.)  There’s only so many times I can chat about being just down or up – it makes me feel like a glutton for attention either way ;)
OH! I’m sorry to have just read that Super Fun Night has been cancelled on ABC. I really love Rebel Wilson and was hoping it’d work out for her on US television. Boooooo!
Alright, well we’re 2 weeks away from our first Peacock Party on a Wednesday night at Duane Park...hope you can make it out!

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, May 6, 2014


Gees - I am on day 13 and feeling it. This too shall fuckin pass!
I absolutely love my job.  It is SO great to be back.

I am a bit of a mess over this dude still. I'm so mad.
I think I finally verbalized the hardest part about it to a friend: I've never in my life had to push someone away. In fact, I've always tried to guess ways to keep guys around - which obviously never worked - and here I am with someone I had so much faith in and now I have to separate myself from him. I can't take it.

He had a few things at my place and I meant to take them to his work last weekend but forgot to grab it.  I dropped it off on Sunday. Packing that bag was incredibly painful...toothbrush included.

I'm gonna get to sleep. The next time I can wake up without an alarm will be exceptional.
I got to perform at Kitty Nights on Sunday and tried out my new dress & Lana Del Rey song. So far so good, I enjoyed it so now it's time to work on it more! I need a stripper zipper AND TO GET THE FREAKIN INK TAG TAKEN OFF. So ghetto. I know.

Ciao for now,


PS: Don't forget! My new CEO is also going to come if she's in town. AMAZING!!
Next week I'll be announcing the performances by <3