It’s so fucking ridiculous how much a
bad memory can linger. It takes up so much head space (because you
let it) that you actually forget all the good stuff. I began to reflect on 2014
and had this “it was alright” sort of reaction and then I went HOLD UP! And put
on the brakes *screeeeeeech (not the murderer from Saved by the Bell).
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After sitting back and realizing what a moron I was for
thinking I had an
alright year, I slapped
myself across the face and THEN asked myself: well how the hell can I top
2014?? Before the year’s end I was on 2 TV shows (
Better TV with the smart and beautiful
Rachel DeAlto &
Midevenings with Jay Miller), in a calendar with the
Pinups forPatriots, I hosted red carpet interviews at a film festival (
The Nickel Series),
I won a trip to LA and got to watch The Real’s finale taping, I got more
tattoos on my knuckles, I put on 4 amazing shows at
Duane Park, I GOT A
RIDICULOUSLY PERFECT NEW JOB (which, if you remember was my #1 goal, woot!), I had
an amazing love although it was lost, I spent my NYE with Coco, and I even won
a big screen TV via the show Super Fun Night (RIP) and Twitter. Gees Louise!
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The truth is that the heartache still lingers and that seems
to trump all the good stuff. There are days I choose to be self-loathing
because I just want to be, leave me alone. Most days though, I wake up and
think, holy shit, life is perfect. I am happy, mostly healthy (getting gyno
results this Thursday, I’m pretty sure it’s nothing serious because I hope my
doc would have called as I asked), ambitious, and free. What more could I ask
for as a 31 year old living in NYC?
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2015, is off to a wild start and might be giving last year a
run for its money! Get your presale
calendar here, benefitting the
New York Women’sFoundation and filled with local self-made business owners from performers, to
photographers, to shop girls! My
Raw Travel episode that I filmed while still
working at
Tatyana Boutique, (formerly Bettie Page Clothing) is airing in February or
March. I will be lecturing for a portion of the Solo Intensive at
BurlesqueBikini Bootcamp on 1/19 (
sign up!) regarding positive language and your body.
I got to perform at the
Lovesick Expo again at
the Music Hall of Williamsburg on the 1
st Sunday of the year and I
haven’t been smoking. Sooo…not a bad start. I am pumped to say the least. Your continued love & support make all of this so much more fun and worth ever drop of energy <3
What have you been up to? Any fresh or continued goals? Let us know!!
Ciao for now,
TT
UPCOMING SHOWS:
Thursday, 1/15 – Nurse Bettie, No Cover
Thursday, 1/12 – Nurse Bettie, No Cover
Saturday, 1/14 – Hosting at The Triad