Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Some Serious Libra Status!

I’ve had an emotional roller-coaster of a week.

I was flying high (aside from some issues with my body & hair) yesterday morning when I began watching my spot on Better TV. I sat with hosts Kristina & JD to chat about being single and looking for love. We entrusted their resident relationships expert & my friend –of-friend Rachel DeAlto to diagnose what’s missing. What came to light, as I discussed in last week’s post, was the fear of losing my individuality in a relationship and the annoying realization that I may very well intimidate the average Joe. Whatever! Here’s the clip if you missed it. I’ve had this amazing out pouring of Facebook posts, texts, & emails of encouragement. They have been a major source of ease. Thank you.

At the same time, I was biting off my nails anticipating my 3:30p colposcopy & biopsy. What is that? Long story short: my tests at the gyno show up positive for some high-risk abnormal cells so they do an intensive/deeper look at my cervix. Terrifying to say the least. Last week I pretty much cried myself to sleep nightly having thoughts like I don’t want to die. I’m never gonna be married because who wants to marry a young girl with cancer. I will never have kids because that’d just be selfish. And finally my mom will have to bury me. Overwhelming feeling of guilt in regards to that last one.  Needless to say, I now wait for test results. The nurse practitioner (whom I only went to because she was close to work and has turned out to be the perfect result of circumstance) said that for as far as her eye can see, nothing is too concerning, but we’ll wait for the results. January 8th, I will know more. *Exhale

Talk about the universe keeping you in check! Being a Libra, I attempt to keep everything in balance and if I can't the higher powers step in. (Marlena, it's obviously because I'm a Libra hahah) I kept my mind & body busy this weekend with a friend’s holiday party, a show on Saturday night at Arlene’s with hilarious Staten Island & Jersey friends, Sunday I had a great brunch with friends & family too! The busier I stayed, the less I cried. I’m feeling much better now that the appointment is over, but definitely extra sensitive. Every story is making me cry, things at my day job are great post-evaluations, people in Australia and their beautiful hashtag: #Iwillridewithyou. Stop it. I’m gonna cry just telling you about it all. J I’m sensitive and I’d like to stay that way. (Thanks for that line Jewel and below is a clip some of you will laugh really hard at but whatever. I loved her in high school.)

THIS SUNDAY - celebrate the holidays with the Pink Chardonnay's and I at Le Poisson Rouge for It's a Pink Christmas! My last show before the year's end so get your tickets because there's always a packed house.

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, December 9, 2014


My visit to Better TV with Rachel DeAlto was nothing short of perfect.

The best part of talking something out with a friend or better yet, an *expert* is putting into words the things you hate to hear or admit about yourself. There is something incredibly cathartic though, when you come to terms with the truth; may it be good or bad.

While talking to Rachel (getting my hurr & makeup touched up) before heading onto set, my major fear of relationships was defined clearer than I’d like to admit. For a long time, and still, I’ve felt that my wanting a relationship means I am weak or that I’m lacking a 100% sense of self. That by wanting a partner, I’d be giving up a part of my independence. *Exhale I still get anxious admitting that. It feels weirder because I don’t believe that at all, but have developed an emotional and even internal reaction to it. For the first time in my life I answered the question do you want to be in a relationship, with the word Yes. Plain and simple. *shiver

 Before the show, I also realized that I had been working on this issue without even realizing it. I used to make all sorts of excuses of why I was single or better yet, why I should stay single. One of the main reasons I'd argue is that career wise I hadn't settled into anything steady. Since I was still figuring things out I shouldn't bring someone else into that struggle, that journey just in case I get distracted or some other bullshit. A little over a year ago I remember saying to someone else using my exact words that they were silly. And that being in a relationship while figuring things out is 100% possible if you want it to be. Let someone be a part of your journey. I went home that night and while the conversation lingered in my brained I realized I had essentially told myself what I needed to hear.

Another topic we discussed was that apparently I'm intimidating and I have to get over it. That sounds so vain. I just don't understand. I get intimidated by people too, but it will never stand in my way of talking to them. We're only human after all. Let's chat! People are easy to me. Not always nice, but peanuts to navigate or at least attempt to! Don't be shy my dudes, life is short <3

Ciao for now,


Upcoming Shows - Mark Your Calendars:

THIS SATURDAY, 12/13 - Arlene's Grocery with The Three Kings - Improving over some Live Hip Hop...no clue what's gonna happen!

Sunday, 12/21 - Le Poisson Rouge - It's A Pink Christmas!

Sunday, 1/4 - Music Hall of Williamsburg - Lovesick Expo

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

TV Talk?

I am SO excited to tell you that tomorrow morning I'll be taping a a segment at Better TV with resident relationship expert Rachel DeAlto. WHAT?! I don't know anything about it obviously. I know I apparently pick the wrong men. I know I'm too giving from the get-go. I know I'm too flexible and put myself last. I know I'm not interested in online dating whether it's fear based or genuine disinterest...BUT, I do know I deserve good: in life & love. My positive mental & emotional projection will be rewarded in the way it's supposed to. I must believe that otherwise what's the use of waking up everyday?

Check local listings and make sure to follow me on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram -- all that good stuff -- to find out when it airs. *chews off finger nails* WHAT DO I WEAR!?

Hope you all had a nice holiday with friends and/or family. I know I did. I was ready to get back to my pace here in NYC though. I don't know how people just sleep & work. I get anxious without a schedule or things to do. I love have weekends off but I also love having plans with great people all the time. A friend recently said she hated that her days were all melting into one making her feel like she never had a day off -- she hates it. I actually love it!! #TheHustle

Ciao for now,


PS: I met Val Chmerkovskiy yesterday. I die. So cute. And smelled of handsome goodness. *sigh

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Say What You Mean & Mean What You Say

Gees Louise – 2 long weeks have passed and I’ve been having a blast. #SorryNotSorry
I’m really enjoying the perks of my day job. I get to see a diverse roster of live shows on the regular. Most recently I went to see Kevin Gates and B.o.B., Black Veil Brides, and The Ataris. What?! How cool right? These are shows that I probably wouldn't spend my money on, but I get the absolute pleasure of going for free. I pinch myself on the regular! 

I also look at it as a great opportunity to see how different shows work in regards to genre, audience, venue, etc…soaking all the info in! That’s the best advice I can give anyone that isn't 100% satisfied with their job or wishes they were something or somewhere else A) change it or B) try and take the MOST from it. You never know how valuable the experience will be to you later down the road.

In addition to my daytime life, I’ve recently had a shoot in my night-life namesake! Lucy LaRiot is yet again, hard at work shooting another calendar and I've had the honor of taking on one of the months...which one? We'll have to wait and see ;)

How many times have you told yourself: I shoulda just said it? Whatever it might have been; Happy, sad, enlightening, negative, mean spirited,selfish, kind, encouraging or even discouraging but at least it was honest. My girl Chelsea (of Honey & the Misbehavers) were sharing some stories. I brought her up to speed on this guy I've known since I moved to NYC and who I only see randomly throughout the year. He's had a girlfriend since I've known. Recently, at mutual friend's birthday party, he admitted that he always finds himself attracted to me and I admitted that the feeling was mutual. (1st thought: great another unavailable man interested in me, 2nd thought: fuck you) The night went on as usual solid catching up, genuine interest in what the other has been up to, even a sense of relief that we've finally just said the obvious. While gathering our bags & coats - and after a few German beers - I said: I'm gonna say something that's gonna sound mean and selfish and that you're not really supposed to say to people...he interrupted "just say it!"

Every time I see you, which is rare, I hope that you and your girlfriend have broken up.

We grabbed our stuff and followed our friends to the subway.
Definitely selfish, but I just had to get it off my chest. His face dropped immediately and he had nothing to say, but I don't care about that. It felt really good to actually say what I was feeling in the moment and mean it and to someone's face. Not text, not email, not Facebook message, just honest face to face talking. Give it a try sometime, I realized that I wasn't quite sure why we don't do it more often.

Have a safe and Happy Thanksgiving! I'm thankful most for my Godmom's cheeseball that I cannot wait to dig into tomorrow.

Ciao for now,



Arlene's Grocery, December 13 with The Three Kings -- this should be hilarious!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Language of Self-Love


Today I write with fresh news that I’ll be teaching a short interactive lecture on Body Positivity & Self-Love: I Am Worthy! The focus will lie on a topic that has changed me and my thought processes immensely: language. Obviously, much credit goes to the art of Burlesque for embracing a woman of my size, shape, & personality and not only embracing but giving me strength to flourish into something that already existed within me.

If you’re interested in signing up the entire class will be a 2 hour session including the portion led by ME! Isn’t that wild? When approached with the offer, initially I panicked then figuratively slapped myself in the face and THEN said yes. I reminded myself that this is something I've always wanted. I am a natural teacher with hopes of reaching a broad audience. Predominately I hope to influence young girls because I am better suited to understand their experience, but I will never set a hard limitation. Stand by for more details! January 2015 will be off to a great start: performing at the Lovesick Wedding Expo again with EvelynVinyl in tow and once again working with the ladies of Burlesque Bikini Bootcamp but this time off stage!

It’s been 2 weeks, I know and I'm sorry about that. My BFF KE came up to NYC for a night with her daughter and it was a really time of catching up with each other. It’s really easy to lose track of each other’s lives when we live over 2 hours apart and have completely different lives. Nothing beats sitting on one of our couches, sipping a cocktail and getting up to speed! 

I loathe the phrase "love life" but in respect to both my physical & emotional love life neither is blossoming right now. My ex-whatever he was is going through some serious family related things so I've made it clear that he can call if he needs anything. For a split second I realized that to the average person this was an attempt at regaining his attention, but I know that it's a sincere plea to let him know he does not have to go through this alone. Whether he calls or not doesn't matter. Having gone through something similar, I know how comforting even a simple offer was.

I have to get back to work but I've been brainstorming a lot lately. Looking for invigoration everyone! #NewAct here I come!

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, October 28, 2014

I Get High

...with a little help from my friends! Also, to clarify, I mean high on life. And tacos and pitchers of margaritas!!  I'm feeling ultra sensitive lately and nothing seems to help more than time and seeing old friends. They can always help me back away from a ledge (not literally, relax) even if only for a moment.

There we are at Bowery Poetry's This is Your Song Open Mic night on the last Sunday of every month! Fat and happy after a great dinner at Tacombi. Get the side of corn w/chipotle mayo and then crispy fish tacos. Or beef. or anything really because that place is perfect. And obviously a pitcher of the Paloma to wash it all down! Also, that's TAG client Meghann Wright.

Gearing up for my first show in sometime and it's on HALLOWEEN! I'm heading back to Staten Island to the revamped #Hashtag bar (formerly known as Full Cup). If you haven't any plans, put on a costume and come enjoy burlesque, live music and great company at BOOLesque!

Still debating my second act for Friday -- come out and see what happens?!

Ciao for now,


PS: I've reached the 5,000cap for "friend" requests. Please head over to The Tina Tassels Page and give a like if you haven't yet as I'll be updating that page regularly!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Well these emotions aren’t gonna eat themselves!

Ugh, so typical while I’m over here crying and getting chunkier than I’d like, I’m sure he’s out on town after hours having a blast (although drinking his emotions and growing his own belly). He will have no trouble finding someone to bide his time with and she will not be lack luster. She will be clueless, and faithful and eventually hurt, but unfortunately that doesn't make me feel better. I want her to be me. I was really into this guy. I don't think it'll ever work out in the end but who knows! For now I'm just really really really bummed out about it and it's affecting me physically.

That said, how the fuck do you find the motivation to be physically fit? I know the experience is different for everyone but I have NEVER been one to head to the gym or take up jogging or anything exercise related on a regular schedule. When the weather is nice it definitely kick starts my mood (naturally), but even that fizzles. I also have a desk job working against me. Ideally, because I don't have to be here so early, I'd wake up earlier and get my heart rate going for even a bit. Starting is always the hardest part...

Have very few shows booked and that's usually definitive of how I'm feeling off the stage unfortunately. Coming up is Halloween night in Staten Island which is always a blast.

I hope you're all fairing well, sorry to be such a bummer...

Ciao for now,


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Passive Aggressive Brain

What is it about doing the right thing that always feels SO wrong?
The pain, the sadness, the anger, and even guilt...particularly in head vs. heart matters.
(And specifically, my subconcious desire to have my dude show up to my birthday even though it would have ruined all of my i decided to separate from my dude for good plans!!)

I'm so mad that I have a good head on my shoulders. Doesn't that sound so pathetic? Like for one second, I wish I didn't make a sound decision because I wouldn't have to sleep alone on the weekends. Or I'd have someone, a man, to focus my energy on. Someone, a man, to perhaps make future plans with. Someone, a man, to have dinner with.

When I'm not feeling down or when I'm feeling most like myself I know that all sounds so small. That all the other good in my life is worth celebrating and the other things will work out if I keep the faith.

I had a beautiful birthday celebration at home with friends from all different walks of life. Old jobs, current jobs, college, and even family. It was quite the reminder of how fortunate my life really is and I'm really looking forward to my 31st year! The night before I had a blast as emcee for a Burlesque Bikini Bootcamp showcase at Drom. Not a bad way to start another year.

Ciao for now,


PS: These are starting to be Waiting until Wednesday for Tina Tassels ;)

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Onwards and Upwards

Major thanks to Chelsea of Honey & the Misbehavers for dragging me (not exactly kicking and screaming) to my first Imelda May concert. She sang this amazing song from her new album Tribal and it turned into a sing-along with the audience and REALLY made a huge impact on me. It was a moment of clarity. Tears of joy, sadness, hope, everything...

I've never been a huge fan of hers, but seeing her live is a different ball game and I highly recommend it sooner than later.

Without disclosing further detail I'm separating from my dude for good. We mentally live in different places and it will be best for the both of us to just let it go.

Sorry for the delay in posting, yesterday was a busy day and Monday I was coming down from an angry with the universe ledge.

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, September 23, 2014


I’m so happy to see Pop Culture in 2014 embracing curves. Well, big butts more than anything, BUT I’ll take it! What I am not happy to see is the ever present imbalance of acceptance. Rather than shaming curvy girls we're now shaming "skinny bitches." Every song & advertisement is thin girl hating. What the hell? I have never been into body shaming other than when I was in elementary school, but everyone hated themselves and projected it onto others. I’m guilty of saying stupid things like “well, you can eat whatever you want,” or implying that life is easier for a thin girl (which statistically it is), but I would never seriously uphold such a belief. These assumptions are purely subjective. I DESPISE the whole Real Women movement as well. The problem is that it’s still used in an exclusive context and therefore keeps out the "others." 

Where is all this coming from? I'm not really sure other than some great opportunities popping up that are reminding how fortunate I am to have a healthy body, no matter what size (and despite my many cavities haha). Exciting to be working with the ladies of Burlesque Bikini Bootcamp again at Drom on October 3rd, emceeing a show titled What I Learned in Burlesque School! Funny enough it will be more than I learned in majority of my schooling throughout the years and it was much cheaper!

I'm also inspired by some messages recent & not so recent that I've slacked on replying to or addressing.  I'm not 100% sure how I want to answer them just yet. I will say AB (if you're reading) I had actually written you a reply I was proud of and then my laptop shut down and it was erased and I was so furious I shut the lid and went to sleep. It wasn't meant to be that night I guess!

I'm leaving work in a bit to hit up the Black Keys show at Barclay's. I know lots of you are big fans of TBK, although I don't listen to them on the regular I feel it's my duty to accept a free ticket to an arena show! Taking one for the team *sigh HAH!

Ciao for now,


PS: Just added a Halloween show date in Staten Island at the newly renovated/named Hashtag Bar formerly The Full Cup. BOO-lesque! See you there suckers!

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

They Give Me Fever

Baby Fever actually. FML!
I think it’s my age. Well, that’s the response I’ve been getting from people a bit older than me “Yeah, I felt that too.” I swear every time I see a baby or little kid or even an entire awesome family, my ovaries start rattling. Maybe not rattling, perhaps crying? Ha! I need it to go away asap!  Also, sorry about my weak blogging. I am noticing a really shitty pattern of every other week and for that I suck! But Hieeeeeee, welcome back! :)

Last week I didn’t get a chance to write during the day because of work and that evening my company had an end of summer yacht party. It was really great, my first outing with my new company followed by hours of karaoke!

I don’t really have much to say about my dude. People have been asking. I’m just hanging out and enjoying his company when I can. He did do something really out of character last Wednesday though: I got a text around 7:15p asking if I was still at work. I was, but that’s unusual and I’m usually on the train home by then. He finished working a couple Fashion Week events and had some time to kill before his late night gig (he’s a work horse for sure, no question about that), so we ended up meeting in Time Square – half way between – and trekked to the East Side and headed down to the Village. We walked hand-in-hand and talked forever and he was in this great mood. That made my night... week really. Man, nothing beats a super unexpected surprise. *Sigh

I almost forgot I went to 2 fashion week(end) events! Friday I hit up Smart Glamour's fashion show with Lilin. I was their Woman of the Week and it was really amazing to be recognized but a great movement/fashion line. Saturday, I made my way over to help out Slapback in Williamsburg for Pinup Girl Clothing's 1st ever New York/East Coast Yard Sale. IT WAS A RIOT! So cool seeing everyone dressed up and I got to spend some time with my East AND WEST coast girls! I also met some internet friends FINALLY! Check out my instagram for pics!

THIS THURSDAY - I'll be back at Nurse Bettie doing one of my fave classic acts.
Next Saturday I'll be volunteering at BB King's for the New York Burlesque Festival
Friday, Oct 3 (My Birthday Eve!) - I'm hosting a show at Drom w/ the ladies of Burlesque Bikini Bootcamp. It'll be my first time on Drom's stage!

I am really excited for Fall to say the least!
Ciao for now,


PS: I'm enjoying a crush at work. It takes some of that male focused attention of just one person and obviously I can't NOT think of someone. #BoyCrazyRightNow

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Come say hello!

I've never wanted a long weekend to end until this past one. How sad! I don’t wanna get into it because I woke up in a great a mood and AIN’T NOBODY GON’ TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME!

Having insurance is a blessing. I am lucky to be past my 90 days and the big *I* kicked in. I went to my first dentist appointment in a really long time. So that said, in 2 weeks I’ll be getting a root canal. I can’t wait. The left side of my face & head are pounding. More so at night, perhaps it’s the moon? THEN after that guy is taken care of I’ll be standing in line to get ALL 4 WISDOM TEETH OUT (stand by for pictures mwahaha). I love the dentist. #SorryNotSorry

I’m looking into vacation spots for during my winter break. Somewhere warm, sandy, and where I can be lazy. I wanna be outside by the ocean reading a book and that’s really it!

Some fun stuff happening this week and 2 events/opportunities to stop and say hello!

First thing I’m really excited to share is that I was chosen as Smart Glamour’s Woman of the Week!! I’m happy to not only be recognized, but to be able to share in the experience of body & mind positivity with women all over. I don’t prefer to call it a struggle, rather a daily goal to be happy with myself mentally, physically, & emotionally.
Friday, I’ll be at SG’sNew York Fashion Week event! There will be cocktails and prizes but I'm most excited about getting my measurements: #MeasureMeBeautiful

Saturday, I plan to meet my Pinup Girl Clothing parade at Slapback in Williamsburg. This is PUG’S 1st NYFW event and if you can't make it on Saturday there are other things going on. I look forward to seeing everyone, but what do I wear?!

OMG – I almost forgot to tell you. If you follow me on my numerous social media outlets, you’d know that last Friday I headed to North Jersey for my first official paid “modeling” gig. I was hired by a company that specializes in medical advertising to have the back/upper part of my thighs photographed and the lower part of my butt. For just about 30 minutes of work, I made a nice penny. So now I can really call myself a model – BOOM! #MakeDatCoin

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Dos Semanas!!

There are only 2 reasons I skip blog posts: I’m either really busy and every window I think I’ll have time to write ends up in the gutter OR I’m feeling super down and cannot find the positive energy in my free time to write.
Reminder:  I do not keep posts on file just in case. I only post in real time!
SO IT’S BEEN 2 WEEKS RIGHT? Holy crap! That’s really all I can say right now. Obviously if you follow me on Twitter, Instagram, or Facebook you’ve been sort of in the know.  I don’t think I’ve loved living in NYC any more than these past 2 weeks. I don't know if that's true, but it’s been pretty reassuring that I’ve come here for a reason. I’m literally going to go right down the calendar days. This is exciting; I get to relive it with you too!!
The Peacock Party – YOU MISSED (if you weren’t there) what was probably the best show yet. No tracks. New to DP performers.  And I’m especially proud of the band (Honey & the Misbehavers), killing it their first time performing with dancers. No one skipped a beat! Not being hard on myself, but I wasn’t on my A-game at all so that sucks for me. It was fun and most of the audience was on the same page as us…HA!

- Dances of Vice Summer Nights Burlesque Sail! I was happy to be a +1 to some of the staff from my former employment stomping grounds: Tatyana. The highlight for me was how close we got to the Statue of Liberty. Sadly as a resident, I haven’t done any touristy things that I always saw I will: empire state building, the Highline (I know!), and museums out the wazoo. This was a booze cruise/statue of liberty 1 stop shop for me. The burlesque, and gorgeously dressed couples dancing didn’t hurt either *wink

A couple of months ago I received an email invite to a reading of Kathy Najimy's one woman show in progress "Lift Up Your Skirt" but it had to be postponed. Finally, the Sunday night arrived on the 17th. Unfortunately my original group of 5 couldn't make it due to the date change. I would have went alone, but I asked my new roommate. We arrived at the perfectly sized Uptown location of the 2nd Stage Theater to an audience including Christine Lahti, Gabourey Sidibe, Kristen Chenoweth, and there's an actress whose name I can't remember to save my life. She reminds me of someone from In Living Color, but it's not her. ha! The coolest part of the experience was that it was essentially a run through of the show not merely a reading. It was amazing when Kathy would break character for a moment and look to her music director and say something like "let's cut that for tomorrow." I was dying. So cool. So inspiring. It was really good to see her again and was also nice to know I was still on her email list after my short working stint with her. I wish I was as good as the company I keep!! #GettingThere?

My job is awesome and comes with cool perks. Like getting VIP tickets to the Drake vs. Lil Wayne concert in Queens ON THE HOUSE! I took my dude and it was so much fun. Not only is he a big fan of Drake (hence my out of nowhere love for Drizzy), but he had NEVER been to a stadium concert before. Hanging in our special section we were surrounded by NBA ballers and my dude was pumped. He's also a big sports fan. I am SO happy to have to taken him. More grateful to my coworker who said "take him instead of me, I wanna decorate my new apartment." Thanks JW, it was perfect! <3

OMG! I almost forgot that the episode of Midevenings with Jay Miller Lilin and I shot aired this week. It was actually really awesome and not as bad as I thought it might end up being. And by bad, I thought how much of a fool I'd make myself out to be but it was the complete opposite. Hands down the strangest stripping I've ever done, BUT the first time on television. You can watch the entire episode on YouTube!

- I got couches from my boss. No, she didn't buy them for me but she gave me her old ones. It was SO nice of her!! I love my living room so much right now and cannot wait to finally enjoy it over the long weekend. I will be going to Blue Note on Saturday night though for some Dee Dee Bridgewater thanks to my LA office!

Loving life like crazy now, but I've said it before and I'll say it again: none of this would be fun if my friends weren't along for the ride. <3

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Oh the possibilities...

- I got a promotion. Yes, already!! I'm officially the Office Manager of The Agency Group's New York office. I'M FREAKING OUT!!
- Found a new roommate! She's moving back from Paris to teach History & International Relations. So cool!
- The 4th installment of The Peacock Party is TOMORROW night at Duane Park.
- I danced to my boyfriend Drake's "Hold On We're Going Home" at Nurse Bettie last week. While the act was mediocre nothing beat the audience singing along!
- I'll be seeing Drake and his goofy ass adorable smile next week via guest list. #LoveMyJob
- My dude and I had a great Sunday night of catching up and talking seriously about all sorts of things. It was a relief to say things and not hold back tears. Talked family, "friends", addiction, money, career, future...you name it.  We're still in the same place, wherever that is, but I'm looking ahead and not closing myself off from any possibilities!

Feeling really fortunate recently and I have to keep appreciating even the little things.  I'm sorry I was off last week, but I've keeping myself busy with work0 (day and night jobs), friends & family. Dinner parties w/ yummy sangria, playing with my babies, the Chinese buffet with my grandma, staying at work late, going to dinner last minute with a friend in from outta town, helping clean up after getting to a Flo-town yard sale too late and rhinestoning new pieces. I haven't been so busy and so fulfilled in a long time. I also have a feeling this show is going to be extra special tomorrow night...there's only one way to find out!

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, July 29, 2014

A Brush with Death - JK JK!

Holy crap – I was feeling SO hellish yesterday. At first I thought I was just getting old and had a killer hangover after baby Rocco’s birthday party but that quickly shifted into a fever, loss of appetite (which, if I’m hung over, burger & fries usually do the trick!), and nausea. THEN to make things worse I started reading about all sorts of symptoms and figured I was either getting the flu, am pregnant, or just having REALLY bad PMS.  Not sure what it was exactly but I know I skipped the Lauryn Hill concert (so sad) for good reason. I put myself to bed before 10p and slept like a baby until about 5am and felt like a million bucks when I awoke. Phew! Although, that loss of appetite thing was nice. Ha!

Showtime at Nurse Bettie this week with Calamity Chang and co! I haven't had a show in some time. I'm excited to try out a new costume & new song & overall new approach to an act. It's more update than my usual acts and I feel very meditative when I do it. Perhaps because the song reminds me of my dude. Whatever. I don't feel like talking about him/it right now. I'm not confused or wondering what the right thing to do is because I know it, but I'm just feeling a bit numb towards it all today. Last night was a different story, which I'm sure stemmed from my bout of hell, but I was a sobbing mess over him/it. Mood swings make you feel so crazy. How irritating!!

I  am ready to head home and rehearse a bit. Still taking it easy so I dont jinx my energy but ready to get this show on the road!
Hope you can make it out to a show!

Ciao for now,


PS: The Peacock Party is back at Duane Park on August 13! We're really going for it this time, no tracks, all live music, Honey & the Misbehavers serving up amazing originals as well! Performances by: Evelyn Vinyl, Lilin, Lickitty Split, Francine, and ME!