Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Red River

It was SO pms. hahaha Being a girl is the worst!
Phew. Finally home after a long day.

I have the next 4 DAYS OFF!! What?? Cray. I have some PTO, so that's pretty cool because I'll be HEADING TO PHILLY TO PERFORM FOR THE FIRST TIME - Woooohooo!!
Anybody from Flotown or Burlington going and wanna pick me up on the way??? Let me know! I'm also pumped to see my family, it's my grandma's birthday on Thursday and she's just had a successful knee surgery, but is stuck in physical therapy...boooooo!

Anyway, I've just been rolling with some punches lately at work, play, and my personal life. I've been taking some really fun side gigs and some more shows are lined up!  I'm eager to see what this year brings. I know I mentioned Rebel Ink Magazine last week but I finally got my copy and am freaking out. This is the 2nd magazine I've been in this year. SO WILD! I have to say, I'm pretty honored to be a plus size girl in the mix. Especially compared to the other featured girls throughout the magazine! Check it out if you haven't yet:

NEXT SATURDAY - I'm heading back to my producing roots and performing at Full Cup in Staten Island for Toots Jordan's Show. Hosted by funny man and friend Jay Miller ( Mid-Evenings with Jay Miller & Impractical Jokers writer).

Stay well.

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Which One is it?

I don't know if it's PMS or stress, but either way I am a bottomless pit and feeling incredibly sensitive. I'm uninspired, barely productive, and really messy (don't EVEN get me started on my bedroom). Also I'm crying over commercials. SO PATHETIC! Being a girl is corny.

Work has been really rough, to say the least, this winter. I know it's everywhere but that is not comforting. I've been in hermit mode for months because I just cannot afford to do ANYTHING if it doesn't involve work. These are the times NYC really tests me...but I'm not going anywhere! I feel really embarrassed about where I am financially. I used to make stupid excuses or be flaky rather than just admitting I'm counting pennies until next payday. As long as my rent is paid I can deal but the anti-social I can't lifestyle is definitely catching up to me. *exhale Spring is coming..

I'm feeling frustrated with the universe (and I guess myself as well, because who else can I blame?). I've been handed another great non-relationship relationship. We've been seeing each other pretty steadily since November - I know. I didn't realize that until I just checked my phone.We're both going through stressful times and our schedules & attitudes are having a hard time lining up on the regular...this is why I don't date. I'm really into this dude for good reason, but I have no idea if it's worth anything. I'm so annoyed. I put his toothbrush in the cabinet a few weeks ago so I didn't have to see it every morning on the counter. His 3 shirts are washed, dried, and hanging in my closet and his socks are mixed in with mine...first time in my life someone has been so present in my living space.

We plan on celebrating his 30th birthday on Thursday night but due to unforeseen accidents he might have to pick up shifts on his allotted vacation days. THERE IS NO GOD!! (I'm being dramatic, relax bitch.)

My morning talk shows today have been strangely related to what is going on. Bethenny this morning was discussing relationship timelines with her panel & audience. She even said "At 3 months you decide if you're Holding em or Folding em!" What do I do? I am NOT a fan of pushing people away for no real reason. The fact is, I'm not really sure what I even want so I don't feel the need to make any big decisions or requests or whatever...ok, I don't know where I'm going with this.

Long story short: I'm feeling stressed in regards to career and it's having a domino effect into other parts of my life. I'm happy, but annoyed.

This week the new Rebel Ink Magazine came out and I'M INSIDE! I'll be grabbing my copy today. So crazy!

Ciao for now,


I'll be performing in PHILADELPHIA NEXT FRIDAY MARCH 28!
Come check out ARCHER BURLESQUE! Yes, that Archer.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014


I held this dude hostage on his day off. I almost got to blogging yesterday but decided not to. And you know, I usually like writing in real time rather than having some things waiting to post...read: lazy/last minute. HA!

I know it's Wednesday but whatever! It's actually more exciting because I had a chance to go over some BEAUTIFUL pictures from the yet-again successful Peacock Party at Duane Park!
Damian Van Camp (www.DamianVanCamp.com) was able to capture some beautiful shots from the show! A selection have been posted on my Facebook page!

ALSO - Maggie Saniewska, the woman behind Play Me Burlesque Cards, shot video and put this awesome promo together. Check out what you missed from the last Peacock Party!


NEXT UP IS PHILADELPHIA! You heard right, I'll be performing in Philly on Friday, March 28 at PhilaMoca!
And then on April 18th I'll be celebrating World Famous *BOB*'s birthday!!

OK, I'm peeling myself away from the Selena movie and getting ready to go handle some biz! I'll talk to you soon and hope to see you at a show! 

Ciao for now,


Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Birds of a Feather?

I used to constantly say I wasn't ready for a relationship because I didn't exactly have my career set up, I couldn't afford to live on my own, and I was still "figuring things out". Then I realized NO, I didn't have to have all of those ducks in a row to be a candidate for love; that I was able to still work on those things if I did happen to meet someone willing to take the ride with me. I'm realizing more and more that so many people have all of those important things polished and new but their relationships are suffering because the partners have given up on themselves as individuals.

You know the white picket fence, green grass, 2 kids, etc...but mommy & daddy barely talk, or the boyfriend & girlfriend who on those nights alone aren't really alone. I'm kinda freaking out. Ok, I'm gonna shift.... (it's my blog, I can do whatever I want!) That working on the self topic might come next week. Lots of things floating in my head regarding the individual vs. the couple.

I'm kinda having a weird freaking out/trust issue thing going on. How much can you judge someone in comparison to their friends? BEFORE YOU ANSWER, THINK ABOUT IT! I sat for a second, in judgement, I admit it. Against my will. But my dude's friends do some questionable things on a regular basis. Sunday was the first time I left not feeling good about myself or the idea of us. NOTE: There is NO good reason for it, but it was my gut. I thought about how trusting I can be if he surrounds himself with certain types of people. I started to survey my friends and I. We are all really different and don't always agree on some really important things but these differences are what make our circle interesting and I believe, long lasting. I think it is different situation when it comes to a relationship dynamic, but I am worrying to say the least. The stress of not seeing him is definitely a factor, my trust issues (THAT I'VE HONESTLY NEVER HAD BEFORE) are surfacing. He again, said all the right things and is still kind as ever, I don't know. Something about a certain interaction of his was rubbing me the wrong way. FML.

This is why I  stay single.

Ciao for now,


See you out this week?
Thursday night - The Peacock Party
Saturday - Burlesque Bombshells